I am so sorry that you feel like a mess. You're not alone in this. And that's not an exaggeration. I feel the same exact way. Today, I literally mentioned to someone that I do not know how to be alive. I am a mess. That's why I am obsessed with Sadhguru. I feel that if I just spend enough time with someone who has such mastery over different facets of life, maybe I will learn how to be alive. I, therefore, applied for this 7-months program called Sadhanapada. Sadhguru offers it for free. All you have to do is buy your air ticket. So i am saving up so that I can go next year in July. Come and we go, Kitty. Come let's get transformed. Come and we learn how to be real adults.

Here is a link to the participants' experience: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6c0ltOyRjGY