Kitty, this story has really hit home for me.
There was a time in my life when I was scared, SCARED Kitty, of men..
I was scared of my guy friends. I was scared of appearing sexy. I was scared of appearing interesting.
"They will rape you, Assumpta. They will rape you." I'd think to myself if i so much as caught a guy staring at me.

Like you, i am only now learning to unlearn the conditioning about guys that I picked up from my childhood.

I am glad i am not alone in this. I'm glad i came upon your story.